OK ok I know

Ok, ok, I know it's been awhile since I posted, trust me it's been a very odd few months. So here's a basic recap of the last few months.

November - My first Thanksgiving dinner I prepared all by myself, I only ended up crying once, it wasn't that I thought I really needed any help, but was just very hard not to be able to ask mom how she thought I should prepare something. It's odd even though I've been doing the ever famous "family dressing" for several years now, it just didn't taste the same this year. Probably just my imagination but it definetly seemed to be missing something.

November I also saw my friend get married to a great man, they make an awesome couple.

December - Made it through mom's birthday and first christmas without her. It was very odd, we didn't do Christmas at our house which I think helped alot. My brother and his financee did a wonderful dinner, they are both very good cooks.

December 31 came and went with me in bed and sleep way to early, oh well.

January - Did a vacation out west, flew into salt lake city, wow the lake from the air is very pretty. Also flew over Colorado which had some amazing view of the mountains. I would really like to see Colorado some day. Came back home to the same boredom.

January also brought back the return of my depression, guess you can't hold it off forever.

February - well February is looking just as boring, grey and depressing as ever. I have made a few new friends which are definetly a sparkle in the gloom. I did just hit my 5 year anniversary at work, am now officially vested in my pension plan, while that doesn't seem much to most people it's a milestone for me. plus it means that now i can leave without feeling guilty about giving up that pension. now the big question of the year is what to do? stay tuned for the ever revolving drama.